void98 / juhi ♫( -_・) ︻デ═一  ▸

←home
portfolio
@_materielgirl

050721

spiritualized.jpg
how weird to read my writings from 16 and learn about something I had forgotten about?
reading about Gary Warne, sf suicide club, living at 800 Shrader, he seems lit but then he became a cop? weird!
pranks....pranking....I want ori to stand out of the roof of my car with a scepter as we drive around SF...

some interesting stuff in here. . .

"Among other adventures, both planned and spontaneous, the club has eaten din- ner with the Moonies, staged a giant trea- sure hunt ending in a pie and water- balloon fight, attempted to board The Golden Hinde {a replica of an 18th cen- tury sailing ship), spent the night in a ghost town, climbed up a 40-foot rope ladder into an abandoned hotel, imperson- ated a group of mental patients in down- town San Francisco, had a giant frog enter a human in the annual Calaveras County Frog Jumping Contest (he was disqualified), explored the Oakland sew- ers at night, posed naked on an early morning cable car for a postcard reading "WELCOME TO SAN FRANCISCO," and had a champagne dinner on the Golden Gate Bridge."

“WANTED: BIZARRE PHOTOGRAPHS, FAVORITE NEWS CLIPPINGS, WEIRD MAGAZINES, DADA ART, REALISTIC SATIRE, PRINT-OUTS FROM/OF FAKE ORGANIZATIONS YOU HAVE COLLECTED, WACKY LETTERS AND THEIR RESPONSES, DOCUMENTED PRACTICAL JOKES, MISCELLANEOUS TID BITS FOR AN OPENING IN SAN FRANCISCO, FREE TO THE PUBLIC. MAIL TO THE MUSEUM OF THE INCONSEQUENTIAL, GARY WARNE, CURATOR, 1323 11TH AVE., SAN FRANCISCO CA 94122 (415) 661-4121. YOU WILL RECEIVE SOME OF MY FAVORITES IN RETURN NOW, AND A NOTICE FOR THE OPENING WHEN IT OCCURS.”

"On any given night, while most of us Spend the evening plopped down in front of Miami Vice— or counting ourselves adventurous if we're catching a new band at a local watering hole— the Cacophony Society could be tour- ing the sewers of Oakland, playing Capture the Flag by moonlight in the Marin Headlands or Assassin in Macy's, holding a vampire initiation ceremony, putting on their own vaudeville show, noshing at a midnight barbecue in some remote industrial setting, indulging in a little postindustrial cave painting or ritual lying around a bonfire, dining in formal attire on the Golden Gate Bridge, parading down a populous street conceal- ed in huge cardboard boxes, or perhaps they're just playing Killer by candlelight in a vast, underground, deserted, World War Two bunker during the Summer Solstice. The next morning it's time for a poetry breakfast in the woods (of Golden Gate Park), com- plete with musical accompaniment."

communiversity.jpg

it occurs to me that maybe we are too patrician for the rites of the SF suicide club. I can imagine zach saying - "but, that just sounds unpleasant." and maybe he would be right...how, then, to incorporate the jocularity and playfulness and underground-ness of all this, while still staying true to our nouveau riche life-styles... maybe we posture to be 'hard' but truly we are just a little soft and squishy, and desire comfort, and certainly not discomfort for discomfort's sake...im oddly not too worried about all that, though, because it seems contemporary to live this life and have those wants, yeah the bowery school liked to play around with piss and trash but we're much more vampire weekend than that, for better or for worse, and anyway maybe you need both in the counterculture, like a yin and yang...

050621

IN HARMONY WITH THE TIDES OF LIFE!

050521

why does this look like gentrified Airbnb?
Human Hotel
exquisite corpse game on shrooms could be fun
focus on process translates well to exhibitions from games
sculpy exquisite corpse sculptures...
thinking about the institution as a legitimizing force, and also the re-legitimization of the institution - sucks that creating one has so much to offer young artists. what would it look like if we lived in a world where we didn't have to create our own institution to have freedom of inquiry and experimentation? where private property was not integral to the project...one of those things, can't really blame the individual but the structure is deeply flawed
surrealism as the early 20th century version of 'just being random'
surrealist games - automatic drawing, the game of creating rules as we were walking down the LA sidewalks to guide our path...
some interesting-ish Neo/contemporary surrealist stuff in Gagosian's DAYDREAMS AND NIGHTMARES
revisiting Dan Colen and the bowery school
remembering when chris sent around chasing dash snow...what I would give to just be a white boy being recognized for my mediocre art as part of some urbane milieu in the early 2000s?
jeffrey and I are musing on relational aesthetics again...sort of coming full circle. maybe they were on to something?
Terence Koh
feeling envy for chaotic energy...need to all be in the same place...grateful dead house...anarchic...
joof as container...Jeffrey Deitch seems like a funny guy...

050421

emo last night, lonely
seems like life just keeps on going
sometimes when I have a major breakdown the next morning feels clear and light and fresh, like a rebirth of some sort, but today I just feel mildly hungover and still kind of unhappy. but I guess that's the way it goes sometimes. when you sit with the sadness for a while though it just kind of fades into the background...
will I ever stop being emo? it occurs to me that being 23 and emo is still kind of a vibe, but maybe 40 and emo less so...
gonna pick up a new hair dryer from Best Buy. maybe that will make me feel better. need to plan a set for porch rave. started writing down to do lists on pieces of paper and taping them up on my walls, then realized in horror that was exactly what my dad used to do in his manic stages...obsessive notes on every book and printed out pieces of paper like my adderall-induced scribbles in discipline and punish...maybe I just give up now and commit to going out in the same way, no time for fear or anxiety about it, and then maybe I can make peace...

entries from April 2021
entries from March 2021
entries from February 2021
entries from January 2021
entries from December 2020
entries from November 2020
entries from October 2020
entries from September 2020